My Bad

Mourning the Loss of Common Sense

2010-03-23T12:47:00.000-07:00

An Obituary printed in the London Times - Interesting and sadly, rather true….

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Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who

has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was,

since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He

will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:

- Knowing when to come in out of the rain;

- Why the early bird gets the worm;

- Life isn't always fair;

- and maybe it was my fault.

Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend

more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children,

are in charge).

His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but

overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy

charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended

from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for

reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.

Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the

job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly

children.

It declined even further when schools were required to get parental

consent to administer sun lotion or an aspirin to a student; but could

not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an

abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses;

and criminals received better treatment than their victims.

Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a

burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to

realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in

her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, Truth and Trust, by

his wife, Discretion, by his daughter, Responsibility, and by his son,

Reason.

He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers;

I Know My Rights

I Want It Now

Someone Else Is To Blame

I'm A Victim

Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone.

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Peace.

Untitled

2010-02-25T14:13:00.001-08:00

Update... I did drive a long distance... Over 1250 miles in a period of 2 days. Thats about 2000 Kms. Now i can proudly say that in life i am qualified to do one thing properly. Drive

But wait a minute driving in US is hardly tough. Sucks!!!!!!! Back to square one. I am not good enough for anything! :-) He he.

Peace.

Weekend Getaway

2010-02-18T14:07:00.000-08:00

Going out this weekend..

The cities which i plan to visit are Bentonville, AR and Springfield & Kansas City in Missouri.

Best part would be driving over 1200 miles on this trip. Something which i like. 5th time i am going on a more than 1000 mile trip! Is that some kind of record? Hope so! :-)

Considering my lazing around last weekend all the time, this should surely be fun...

Hopefully i will have some pics to share for the very first time in this blog! :-)

Peace!

Random Bits

2010-02-15T08:21:00.000-08:00

Don't have anything coherent to write. So incoherence rules the roost for now...

YouTube completed 5 years yesterday. Pretty amazing isn't it that it was built on such a simple concept and became so BIG. Now there are 100s of sites which have copied the concept but Google has bought and brought YouTube to an unsurmountable place. A big thumbs up to the founders Chad Hurley, Steve Chen and Jawed Karim. Isn't it amazing that they sold it to Google for $1.65 Billion. I wish them and am sure it would last many more years to come! For more on YouTube checkout this link

So Winter Olympics started last week. And it all started on a tragic note of a Georgian Luge athlete dying while practicing . Nodar Kumaritashvili lost control while practicing for his Luge event and was thrown off the track onto a pole causing his death. And this video of his death was shown to millions of viewers by NBC more than once on the day of the incident. Now even though it came with a warning, was it necessary to show such a disturbing video on prime-time television? I often feel appalled when i see that this ratings game makes reporters and channels lose any semblance of decency!

But coming from a country where sports in general is frowned upon as a career option and lack of any achievements in any Olympics, Winter Olympics looks like a fascinating event. Almost all events/games are so dangerous yet so elegant. And as a person who has tried Skiing i can understand how tough those sports are physically. Wonderful spectacle.

More blasts in India. This time it was in Pune. I know its so insensitive of me that i put it as just another event. But i do it with a reason. It has become like just another event, hasn't it. It happens so often as if its a common day to day event. When will our politicians stop putting on an act to the Indian people and start taking tough actions. I cant see such blasts going on without severe repercussions here in US. Why are we so passive? Why cant we show it, to these terrorists the costs of continuing on with such act and to nations supporting such terrorists what they can expect from us. But no, even such gruesome acts are used to garner votes and win electorates. Honestly i am pretty much sick of it.

Anyways i have lost the interest to continue with this entry because i am pretty sure if i write anymore, it would be some incoherent rant about Indian politicians and any such thing would be a little hypocritical from me since i am sitting in a land far away not even able to vote for the last 2 years.

So...

Peace!

Marketing Paranoia

2010-02-12T17:48:00.000-08:00

I often wonder are pimples or dandruff so bad that you have to feel like a social outcast if you have them. Its not like having dandruff is something similar to having poisonous fumes emanating from one's head which kills people walking near them. Or having pimples is having some volcano on your face which will break anytime spurting white lava on people nearby decapitating them or something.

Both are minor medical conditions which can be easily overcome with slight medical care and goes easily away. Both cause minor changes in appearances. And both are much better to have than habits like Smoking or Drinking. But marketing has associated their images with some sort of revolting feeling. So every time someone gets them they feel weird and unworthy and become obsessed with solving them in very small periods of time. And others start treating them differently n badly!

"Dare to wear black" bullshit. You don't have to have a head with no dandruff to wear black apparels. Wearing some dress black in color isn't some Dare. Neither is not having a clean face criminal.

Its always important to understand the propaganda behind marketing of each product. And such marketing should be somehow discouraged/stopped because it pollutes impressionable teenager's minds.

I understand looks are important to a certain extent to be confident. But thats only if you don't have the confidence in your personality. In the long run beautiful airheads are always made fun of and smart people always respected. We just need to remember that.

Peace.

Maturity.. Or the lack of it!

2010-02-10T07:25:00.000-08:00

I always wonder how my life would have turned out if i had rocked my college a little more maturity style. But then i realize no one knows. It might have turned a 100 different ways and i am better off not knowing it because the reality of it all is what I am now.

College... 4 yrs of it... I dont know how it went by but there are so many things which i did during then that i am so ashamed of... I cant make myself to disclose all of them here because well basically i am ashamed to do so. But i can always say Sorry to them if they are reading.

Sorry to Mom n Dad and my young(back then) sister for deciding to quit college and in the most blatantly stupid/absurd manner at that. I guess thinking back now, i should have confided more in you. I can still see the look on your faces when i saw you after that and the feeling that i made you go through that is something which will haunt me till my grave. I should be Sorry to my friends as well who also had to suffer some because of that.

And i am sorry to you as well Shiva.. I still dont know why i did what i did! And i am still so thankful for the way you handled it. Worst punishment, is for me to go through my life with a pang of guilt every time i think of you and i surely deserve it.

To be honest, i have lived all my life with a sense of Inferiority. I always hanged out with a group in which i was inadequate in so many ways. Thinking back i really dont think there was not anything wrong with that. What was wrong was i wasn't ready to live with what i was. I always Acted out / Lied to try and impress people into thinking i am something or someone else. Sad part was i used to do it even to my close friends. And for that I am sorry to all of them.

I am sorry to those people who thought i had more potential and who kept encouraging me to do better. Because i now realize that i could have done better. Much better. But Laziness and a lack of confidence has brought me to a place where people around me feel that i have under achieved. And so do I.

And finally even though I am not Sorry to myself, I am sorry for myself because to this day I dont feel comfortable under my own skin and prefer to be someone else all the time. This feeling sorry for self can be considered as Self Pity but believe me i dont feel pity for myself right now, i just feel pity for the person i was all this time which made me what i am now.

But the silver lining in all of it is, God blessed me with a great family and some wonderful friends who in spite of all that i mentioned above and countless of other things which

i haven't mentioned, have been with me throughout and always made me feel better than i was. I cant promise to change overnight but i am trying to show you that i realize my flaws and am not oblivious to them and i am trying to work on them!

I am Pathologically Lazy!

2010-02-09T11:00:00.000-08:00

These blogs are fun. Every time i take a long sabbatical and come back, i look at my previous posts and wonder how could i have been so lame to believe that i can actually do something with continued interest over a long period of time! I cant because of 2 reasons, first would be that i lose interest easily and lack any sort of will power to egg me on if i am not interested; and the second n more important one would be i am Pathologically Lazy.

So now the wonder is how is it that i seem to be writing this one? Well its mainly because one of my friends recently started blogging and i came out here to check his blog out. And while doing so i thought maybe i should post something as well. By the way, if this post by some mistake or chance is seen by someone else's eyes other than mine, you should follow my friends blog. He is a smart guy and is very incisive in his thinking and you would like reading his blogs if he becomes a regular. His blog's link is http://elitecynic.blogspot.com/

So what happened to me or things that interest me during this sabbatical of mine?

Well for starters I went home for vacation for a couple of weeks. And i can proudly say i spent a lot of time with my family which is something i wasnt doing a lot even when i was staying with them. So i guess the old cliche of realizing the importance of things close only comes when it becomes hard for you to do that is true.
I moved into a new apartment and now have no roommates. So thats something commendable and it deserves a pat on my back even if its my hands which is doing the patting. Why, because now i cant mask my loneliness! :-)
This was also the period when i did some great work @ work (now thats a confusing sentence), did not get the recognition and lost interest in my Job.
Arsenal had a pretty good season till this weekend where they ended a 3 match streak with such bad form that to imagine the optimism which i had of them winning the PL this season seems very distant and absurd!
I traveled to a lot of places in US and did a lot of driving on the US interstates which has made me realize that i love driving and also that i would have more passion doing my work if i was a Driver rather than what i have now for this IT Stuff which i am doing.
I did a lot of new things like para sailing, shooting, horse riding, bar hopping, dieting (yeah for the first time in my life even though i have been fat for a longgg time) etc..

The list above would go on but there are things which i dont wanna share in a place where even though its difficult but not impossible for other human beings to stumble upon. But in summary this was a great period in my personal life as i experienced a lot of new things and emotions and a shit period in my work life!

Anyways now i feel like i cant go on as i have lost interest in typing more things to be part of this blog. So farewells to myself, meet you next time here!

Entertaining Tuesday and Sick Wednesday!!

2009-04-23T22:56:00.000-07:00

Arsenal played a wonderful match against Liverpool in terms of attack but a pretty bad defensive performance... Same goes for Liverpool as well.. So it made an entertaining match... had fun watching highlights package... This was tuesday!!

Then i watched American Idol results show for the first time on wednesday... Becoz i wanted to check out what was all this hype about Anoop Desai... Did not support him all this long as i thought it would look like i am doing that only because he is a Desi and i am indian... but his voice was awesome and his demenour polite and nice... hard not to root for such a guy!! So i have been very disappointed along with one other friend of mine who goes by the name Savio (positively in despair)!!

So i am going to be mourning for a couple of more days... I wanna write about Anoop-Dogg, so tomorrow i am going to make that effort.. today i am just going to try to sleep offthe disappointment!!

Tale of two days!!

Cheerio for those who dont feel my angst....

Belated Happy Earth Day!!

2009-04-22T23:19:00.000-07:00

I had a busy day doing nothing useful which is why i wasnt able to wish before...

I am not gonna pass a whole lot of preachings here because in 21st century most of us respect or cherish things only when that thing's "Day" comes in... Like Earth day or Aids Day or Tobacco Day or many others... So i am sure its no use... And i include myself when i say all those things.... But still one thing we all have to remember is that we dont make Earth not even livable for our next generation or other organisms who form the part of the delicate and all so important ecological chain...

Anyways a true Salute to all those who are working for creating a better or rather preserving a better Earth like Greenpeace to whom i contribute some money to satisfy my pitiable conscience!!

Peace!!

What happened to HIMYM??

2009-04-21T07:54:00.000-07:00

For people who dont know, HIMYM stands for "How I Met Your Mother"... This is a show about a guy who is narrating to his kids in future how he met their mother and set in current times...

When i started watching the show, i loved it... Robin Scherbatsky (Cobie Smulders) cast a spell on me which still hasnt gone away.... Barney Stinson become my Hero and i saw the Series pretty much non stop for 3 days to get upto date... Then i started catching the show on Mondays in CBS and after a couple of weeks have been pretty disappointed....

Seems like something somewhere is wrong... There is a certain lack of chemistry between characters.. I know something is not right but i am just not able to point my fingers at it...

For people who dont know who the Lady in picutre is, she is Robin Scherbatsky a.k.a Cobie Smulders a.k.a MINE :)

Anyways those of you who havent watched the show yet, you should... Its a wonderful show and some of its episodes are Legennn(wait-for-it)aryyyy...

Sunday Roundup...

2009-04-19T21:45:00.000-07:00

I dont know why but suddenly i am enjoying this blogging thing and almost updating it daily... Maybe its seeing other do it... But dont be surprised if i suddenly stop doing it coz interests come to me like seasons and often disappear faster than you imagine...

SUSAN BOYLE

First of all, i wanna say i am still not done with my Susan Boyle fascination... She is still mesmerizing me with her voice every time i listen to this video.. and i am not one of those guys who is into Opera or Ballads but i liked Paul Potts and i like Susan Boyle... maybe its just the voice....I have been part of the internet generation for sometime but even then her story is more than amazing...

This video was uploaded on 11th April... i saw it yesterday and the number of views was around 29.5 million... Tonight when i am checking it out and now the view count is 32,427,554... thats about 32.5 million meaning 3 million views on 1 day.. and apart from this there are several other videos of the same performance whose views add to upwards of another 30 million.. thats a crazy phenomenon.... here's hoping that she wins!!!

KNOWING

I went to this movie called "Knowing" yesterday.... I like most of Nicolas Cage's movie and this was one was no exception... wasnt extraordinary or something but was a kind of gripping and worth taking my lazy ass off from my couch....

Would recommend the movie if you havent watched it already coz i believe i was pretty late to watch it!!

Cheerios......

Sickening Saturday to a wonderful Sunday!!!

2009-04-19T13:58:00.001-07:00

Arsenal lost!! In a game where our Line up did not even look as if we tried to win it!!! What happened to you Arsene... Since when did you become a tactical Manager... We play football not tactics!!! And you are not a tactical Manager...

It was really hard to digest a loss after 4 months.. I know we lost to Roma 1 nil but that game went to penalties because of 2 legged nature and we ended up progressing.... So it was a big let down!! Anyways the second biggest game of our not so good season ended up being a nightmare... but that doesnt mean Season ends here... One more chance... Champions League!!!

And i hope we thrash Liverpool along the way!!!

I have had better Saturdays even when Arsenal have lost... This was a new low!!!

But then i heard a new Big Buzz early on Sunday (around 1 Am)!! Susan Boyle.... Wow what a DISCOVERY... if she doesnt go on to win Britain's Got Talent, then i personally will be let down by the British Public... but confident i s high coz Paul Potts won it in 2007 and his story was a little similar to Susan except of course Susan i think has more talent!!!

So thats the tale of a day starting with great anticipation which went pear shaped because of tremendous disappointment which then got enlightened by a fairytale talent discovery... Thank god the smile came back before i slept off..

There was a small matter of watching a movie in between called "Knowing"... But hopefully on that i would write or rather type something later!!!

Cheerio!!!

Bobby Pires - Forever an Arsenal Legend!!!

2009-04-15T15:35:00.001-07:00

That picture describes everything about the way i feel about the Man!! A true legend and a humble player... The fact that he exchanged his shirt with the youngest and most inexperienced Arsenal player tells us about his love for our Club!!!

You will be one of the Legends of Arsenal Football Club for eternity!! Thank You!!

Football is the best game in the World!!!

2009-04-14T13:52:00.000-07:00

4-4!! Poor Pool!! Pity them, great performance away from home but Home game condemned them long before this started!! Still great spirit though!!!

What an awesome game!!! I just have to do one thing!! Watch it!! :):):)
Here's hoping Chelsea got drained by this and become Dud this weekend and we go through to FA cup final!! And then Barca destroying them apart in CL Semis to set up a final with Us!!

But thats a long a way to go!! Isnt it!!

Joy - How do you recognize it?

2009-04-13T12:01:00.000-07:00

People who know me can vouch for the fact that i am one of the laziest person around... I am a fairly gifted guy in terms of ability/intelligence (and i have god n folks n teachers to thank that for and not myself which is why i am making such a vulgar sounding claim) but i have always let my laziness rule my roost and underachieved most of the times....

But there have been times when i have overachieved sheerly because of the luck god has endowed me with... Like getting a job in a S/W company when i did not even know how to write a simple factorial program in spite of being from the IT background... Whenever i overachieve (i say over achieve more because of the lack of effort i put in achieving it rather than feeling lack of ability to get it or doing it), i always say my prayers thanking god, and my folks's good Karma (coz i dont have much good Karma) and feel happy.... but i have never felt Joyous!!!!

But when i was in college and one of my friends got a job, i was jumping around pumping my fist at home even before he saw the letter saying he got the job.... i was in a euphoric and joyous state for more than 3 hours before i told him... the same happened sometime back when i heard one of my other friends got a job recently in a bad financial climate... i often think why i cant feel the same way when i achieve things... but i cant find an answer!!! maybe because i always have a nagging feeling that i could have done so much more with my life if not for my laziness...

Joy comes to me only when its someone elses happiness and that person is close enough to share it fully with me... How about others? Am i just a differently abled creature when it comes to emotions??

Love of my Life

2009-04-09T12:06:00.001-07:00

For as long as i have been seeing EPL and for as long as i have been watching football, Arsenal and Dennis Bergkamp remain etched in my memory from the very beginning.... I remember the 1994 World Cup as a 10 year old watching matches and hearing about great players like Romario, Baggio etc... But my first clear World Cup recollection was 1998 WC. Was enchanted by the player named Dennis Bergkamp whose last minute Goal against Argentina in QF still reverberates through my very soul!!! Saw France beat my favourite team Brazil (which neutral did not like them especially in those days)... Was heartbroken and mystified by some of the things which happened in that Final....

But that increased my interest in Football by leaps and bounds and then came EPL... dont even remember how i got to see the EPL matches but immediately started following Arsenal coz it had Bergkamp... saw some other wonderful players... Overmars, Anelka, Viera, Wiltord, Bobby Pires, HENRY, Kanu, Ljunberg, Gilberto, SEAMAN, the wonderful BACK 4 especially Tony Adams, and so many others...

My liking grew to love to present obsession with Arsenal... Arsenal grew on me from season to season... As i grew up i got more opportunities to watch them, understand them as a club, understand their achievements and feel proud of them with the HIGHEST point being the unbeaten season and League win over Liverpool on the last day of the season in the last minute (even though i was 5 at that time, looking at that recorded match still gives me goosebumps) ... Man was i on top of the world in that unbeaten season....

Today i am learned enough about arsenal that i can be part of forums and share and learn from other supporters how it is to support Arsenal.... Man am i glad that i chose the right club... Cant imagine being a supporter of Man united or that Chelsea or Liverpool... Cant imagine associating myself with the cheapness associated with supporting Barca or Real madrid always prying on other team's players... Cant stand the Italian football ethos and their defensive mindset.... So yeah, i chose the right league and the right club!!!

I wish i was in London... so that i can associate myself with Arsenal!! I wish i was one of those guys who had a family with Arsenal following tradition... I wish i can hold a Arsenal Season ticket one day and travel to every Arsenal home and away match!! I wish "Fever Pitch (the English Version, not the stupid and copied American version)" was based on my life!! Being a 25 year old i cant explain the obsession normally associated with younger souls which i have towards everything Arsenal... But love is mysterious and cant be explained, can it?? and this is pure unadultered love, make no mistake!!

Dont have any specific reason of writing this piece... But this weeks experience of supporting Arsenal made me think about why i go through the agony... the win against Man City, the draw against Yellow Submarine, the subsequent injuries because of the match, the perils those injuries have in store for us, the uncertainty over the rest of the season... is this all worth it?? Well the answer is, YES!! Every iota of this agony is absolutely fantastic!!! I shall rather die in agony than lack the passion!!!

Gunnerzzz for Life!!!!!

General Elections !!! Sudden Impact!!

2009-03-25T13:23:00.000-07:00

I have been following the news for sometime and hearing about the elections... But i couldnt care to find out when it was... but all this news about IPL being postponed and taken to another country because of elections made me find out when exactly election was... Man i dint know they are coming so soon....

I used to, i remember, when i was in school, sit with my dad and watch NDTV with interest trying to find out who won during election results time ... listening to all the cr@p the politicians and leaders were eschewing... i used to find it interesting and believable when they were trying to make losses sound like wins, saying their party will win even though they were 100 seats behind their rivals as if some miracle is about to happen... it never did and i often was saddened if it was the party which my folks were supporting...

During that time how i wished i would turn 18 faster so that i can vote.. i eventually did turn 18 but had to wait for 3 years to get a chance to vote.. when i did, i went and voted for a IIT guy who was starting a new party with some vision thinking i am contributing to the society.. but that guy lost badly which was expected... what was worse was that party broke because of infighting... and that ended my belief in the electoral system of India....

Since then I have become a Cynic watching with amusement the things which goes on in Indian politics... Sometimes get enraged and then think what better can i expect... India Shining or Aam Aadmi campaign.. well neither.. coz its only Politician getting Richer which is the campaign which always win...

So which party do i Support.. well i dont have to say coz it sure doesnt matter... which party would win, Congress or BJP or Communists?? None!!! which coalition win, NDA, UPA or "Third Front"... well no one can say... well there is a good chance that eventually the coalition running the government is something new, found by a set of opportunistic parties and its called "NUPA Front"!!!

But i can say for sure who will lose... Indian public.... When i see Obama i see a guy who has a vision and a plan to do something with his country... he may be right or wrong.. he maybe someone who is going to be corrupt and make millions or billions.. but still he has a policy and he will follow that... i try to find an Obama amongst Indian politicians ( and i am not big fan of Obama) and i cant believe i can find one.. so that pretty much Sums up our future... India is growing despite the politicians.. If only it did with the aid of politicians, we might be somewhere else..

Still i feel bad i am not able to Vote in this general election... Don't know why!!

R.I.P Grandpa

2009-03-18T12:17:00.000-07:00

I have finally paid for my petty beliefs... This week i lost my grandpa...

He passed away at an age of 80.. he lived a full life in his own terms.. never was he bogged by his age or health... did what he wanted to without anyone's help be it traveling on a pilgrimage or going back to hometown for staying there for a few days because of nostalgia... to hear about him that in his last few days he was sick and suffering was heartbreaking... more heartbreaking was the fact that i heard that after he passed away... i can never forgive myself for not calling him more regularly...

i am still not able to understand where in my life that i became such a cold ba$t@rd.... when i was studying in school i was someone who would find it hard to stay away from home long.... i was always professing to my friends how i will be in touch with them always in my life... how i used to be proud of my school and how attached i was to it... for a couple of years after school i used to visit every time i went for my vacations...

but somewhere down the line i became the cold guy i am right now.... i can go on weeks without talking to my folks... i feel awkward getting in touch with my friends... i would rather sit n rewatch a show for the 15th time than spend a few mins on phone with near and dear ones.... and i used to feel proud about my actions thinking i am being cool and living in the moment....

god gave a me a harsh lesson to show the faults of my ways... the man who was a such a big reason for my mom's family to where it is now, the man who never thought twice before saying anything in his mind, the man who i always thought expected me to do well, the man who always did what he could in his own way to help me succeed in my life, the man who i felt so close to and the man who asked for me and wished me even on his last day when he was talking to my mom could not even get a call from me asking about his health....

i have spent the last 4 days so ashamed about it and been dying to tell someone about my woes.... but like always didn't have anyone around close enough to share the grief.... because of own faults... i have been blessed with some of the best friends one can even dream of... but me living in my moment has taken me so far away from them, that calling them and talking to them even as a thought makes me feel ashamed....

i wish i could turn back time and just say thanks to all their belief and help throughout my life... i wish i can show my gratitude to them in the appropriate manner... i wish i could relive my life and talk to my grandpa just one more time to show how much i respected him.... but that's not possible...

but i can mend my ways.... and hopefully i will be blessed with the strength by the god to do so....
a big sorry to all my friends whom i have hurt... a big sorry to my grandpa for not even caring to give a call to you....

May your soul Rest in Peace... Will always love, respect and think about you.....

Self Respect

2009-01-06T12:36:00.000-08:00

Ok the title sounds like i am going to give out a lecture on something serious et all... but no... its not about that... its just that i remembered that i was actually doing this "blog" stuff out here and all of a sudden i thought it would be a good thing to continue doing so... but when i came here and read my previous one, then i was a little taken aback...

I made a commitment to do some research and tried to make myself do it without any laziness by making a declaration of it here.... and still the amount of effort i put in ended up being Zilch... well that clearly shows that i have reached the pinnacle of laziness.. there is no going down further anymore... i am at the lowest ebb...

But then again who gives a damn... at least i get down to lie down and stare into the mental wilderness more than others do... :):)

Financial Meltdown

2008-09-30T00:10:00.000-07:00

You ever had that feeling of utter dejection over something which sounds ominous but you don't understand... That is the exact feeling i have about this whole financial meltdown happening all over the world....

2-3 weeks ago i was a carefree man with plans of saving money for my MBA and quitting in an year or 2, finishing my MBA and touching the top of the world... I know it sounds unrealistic especially for me , but i like to have my own fantasies...

Then i heard about the bankruptcy of Lehmann Brothers.. This was followed by some more interesting news about the other giants like Morgan Stanley, Merill Lynch and AIG.. Add WaMu and some other smaller financial firms and it almost sounds like doomsday has arrived... But the bottom line is i just don't understand whats happening...

Things sound bleak... Things seem bleak.... People seem dejected and optimism is the last thing floating around... but still i am not able to bother myself enough to find out what exactly is happening.... Considering procrastination is almost a habit of mine, i feel its about time i come out of it...

So before i go out and do my research about what exactly is happening, i just wanted to commit myself so that i cant back out... so here i am writing a bunch of crap things which doesn't matter to anyone reading (which no one is according to the last count of number of views in my profile) .. But then again when i am done with my research its gonna make a lot of sense for me to write this blog as without this i am 100 per cent sure, i would postpone it again!!

Saturday Morning

2008-09-28T23:05:00.000-07:00

Since this is going to be my first blog (the previous one was just an excuse of a blog), what would be better than talking about the team i am obsessed with, Arsenal, along with a certain other things...

Like every weekend by friday night i am done with solitary but ritualistic visit to my favourite hangout in dallas... i am also done with the mask which i put during the week (although only in office), the one where i potray myself as a responsible and hard worker... i do all this with the hope that on Saturday mornings (sometimes Sunday) i will get to see the team i am crazy about, play... i wouldnt bore anyone with how this started or what kind of obsession it is but it is an obsession.... a monstrous one...

I stop caring a damn about the world and anyone in it except for Arsenal and its players... the story was no different this weekend too... i woke up on Saturday morning early even though i had slept only at 4 am to see the Chelsea match which was before Arsenal... Chelsea won pretty comfortably... I also read Liverpool and ManU won their matches... So i realized, now we are in a position where we have to win to stay on top... It was enough to make my Saturday morning nervy already...

But then i had trust in Arsenal and their potential... I was confident we would win... But what happens? They go ahead and lose... to a team which were recently promoted... There is the sucker punch.. to say i was pissed would be an understatement...

I shouted at my roomie... Dint pick up any of my friends call's some of whom were the damn ManU fans... Life looked like getting over... Thats the problem with obsessions... They give you great joy when things go right but rip out the life of you when things screw themselves....

Anyways after that i have no recollection of anything good happening to me... Even if they happened i am sure i would have been too pissed to notice..

Just watched 3 movies, all of which were Romantic comedies... See this is what happens to Single guys... they seem to hook onto sports as if its gonna replace the need for companionship....

Anyways, I am over the loss now.... but our next match is Tuesday and i am sure i would be back in my Euphoric or Suicidal state soon...

Beginning!!

2008-09-27T23:28:00.000-07:00

I was just going through one of my friends blogs and i was wondering what happened to my decision to start blogging many months ago.... took me a few minutes to find this page that was created by me...

With optimistic intentions of maintaining continuity i start !! people close to me would know that it is just another barmy fling of mine which i would soon forget... well, lets see if i prove those people wrong!!

Now that i have started, i am wondering who would be my readers?? Well to be quite honest i am finding it difficult to come up with even a single name.... Well maybe some advertisement would help... After all whats orkut and facebook profile for!! isnt it??

Anyways since this is sort of like a beginning to blogging, i think i have filled enough meaningless words in this post to make it look like a decent effort... till i get some nice idea to post something crazy or interesting, its me back to doing absolutely nothing!! Chao!!